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[violue]

I'm more or less the only person I know that makes a point to apologize for their feelings. When I get upset, I apologize to certain people for it. As if my emotions were something I should be apologizing for. What the fuck is wrong with me? (that's a rhetorical question)

I swear these anti-depressants are freaking killing me. Still waiting for them to even me out a little. I had a FUCKED UP morning yesterday and the timing was mighty awful because I am just a wreck. But that appointment I made a few weeks ago is tomorrow. I'm ahhh getting some sort of psychological assessment to see if I qualify for counseling or something along those lines. Woohoo. I wanted to do this when I MADE the appointment, but now im not sure if I can handle it. I don't want to cry in front of a stranger, and lately i tend to cry when I talk about my problems...even small ones... it's actually rather annoying. o_O

So...just a couple more weeks until school starts...which means an entire summer will have gone by, and I never got a job, or did a bunch of interesting things, or read a bunch of books, or even cleaned my room....crikey. So school should be a nice change... it'll either give me a nice distraction, and something good to focus on, or it'll completely push me over the edge.

Comments

[andricus.livejournal.com]

Hang in there! I find myself apologizing for how I feel sometimes, especially anger. Of course growing up, anger wasn't something that my family communicated very well.

You're awesome! I know the anti-depressants are messing with your emotions and such, but hang in there. ^<^

*pandahugs*