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[violue]

I'm more or less the only person I know that makes a point to apologize for their feelings. When I get upset, I apologize to certain people for it. As if my emotions were something I should be apologizing for. What the fuck is wrong with me? (that's a rhetorical question)

I swear these anti-depressants are freaking killing me. Still waiting for them to even me out a little. I had a FUCKED UP morning yesterday and the timing was mighty awful because I am just a wreck. But that appointment I made a few weeks ago is tomorrow. I'm ahhh getting some sort of psychological assessment to see if I qualify for counseling or something along those lines. Woohoo. I wanted to do this when I MADE the appointment, but now im not sure if I can handle it. I don't want to cry in front of a stranger, and lately i tend to cry when I talk about my problems...even small ones... it's actually rather annoying. o_O

So...just a couple more weeks until school starts...which means an entire summer will have gone by, and I never got a job, or did a bunch of interesting things, or read a bunch of books, or even cleaned my room....crikey. So school should be a nice change... it'll either give me a nice distraction, and something good to focus on, or it'll completely push me over the edge.

Comments

[bluedevil-angel.livejournal.com]

Hang in there. I think it will be better to talk to someone. I know when it comes down to talking to people I know they are all biast about something and end up stressing me out more with thier opinions then anything. I'm going to go to therapy for stuff from my mom and self esteem. I'm way nervous about opening up to someone I don't know, I think the feedback will be good, but lord help them when I open up when I'm pmsing.

[andricus.livejournal.com]

Hang in there! I find myself apologizing for how I feel sometimes, especially anger. Of course growing up, anger wasn't something that my family communicated very well.

You're awesome! I know the anti-depressants are messing with your emotions and such, but hang in there. ^<^

*pandahugs*