The harsh light of day

I had a dream about Zach and Becky... there was a lot of random confusing shit that dreams tend to have..including bars that randomly came out of the roads like huge fences to stop traffic, and a trip to mcdonalds... but the crux was a 'scene' towards the end... where Becky first kept talking about all these things she liked about Zach... like physical stuff... so dream me figured she was trying to hurt me... then we both went to his "house" which doesnt exsist in real life... and I was leaving..I forget why... and Becky said she was going to wait for him to "talk"...which I didnt believe...so I went around the back and waited to see what happened... and then zach came back and didnt even seem to notice that becky was in his room painting(...uhhh kinda looked like one of my sims when they paint) ... anyway I dont know why dream me did it...but I said "arent you going to tell zach all that stuff you said about liking his body and all that?" ... I think i was expecting her to deny it.... and then she didnt...and zach kind of went "oh really?" and they startee making out in front of me... just like they used to in real life... and they didnt care in the dream, just like they didn't care back then... I think I pulled zach away and slapped him...

which I never did in real life... I always just sat there dumbly.

anyway I woke up and started crying for a bit... it's not fair...I want to move past all that stuff...why did I have to get attacked by it in my sleep??
Dreams like that ruin my day before it ever began.

If anyone that knows Becky is reading this, tell her I hate her. Tell her she's the most cruel and selfish person I've ever met, and she's hurt everyone that was ever stupid enough to care about her. That she could have changed if she wanted, but instead she made excuse after excuse, and blamed everyone else... and tell her I'm going to pay her back for everything some day....and when I decide to there isn't a goddamn placeshe can hide.