...((typed over the course of half an hour at the school computer lab))

:\ I missed school yesterday...
and today I had test that I was COMPLETELY unprepared for... so now i need to take it on monday...
It was really nice of the instructor to let me do that... I'd better ACE the motherfucker now that I have 2 extra days to study it. Shame on me. I might not be the best student, but I don' think I've ever asked a teacher if I could take a test later.

...I'm in the computer lab at school...working on an assignment, typing in this, and staring at the cute guy that I always stare at...that happens to be in here today. He's bloody adorable.
...for all my depressiveness, it's still the simple pleasures in life that keep me going. :)~~~~
...Cookie and I have nicknamed him "Glasses" ...he doesn't wear glasses. That's the best part of the nickname.

...actually cookie and I have ALOT of nicknames for guys at school. so for the guys at school that ALWAYS see us sitting together and think she and I are a couple...we're not. We're checking you out. gwrrr.

anyway...so he's cute. I wish I could be like "hi, I'm Dominique, and you're cute." ...but I really just don't do that sort of thing... I never have, and I'm sure that if I ever do the guy will either say "uhhh I don't think so" ...or he'll have a girlfriend....so I think I'll just not. that's cool. it makes for an interesting character. Kind of like a girl that dresses in alot of black but has a pink hello kitty watch...not even some hot-topic marketed hello kitty watch... no this was something from target. in the kids watches section. ....just thought I would share that.

god this guy is really cute.

anyway im working on this resume assignment... since i don't have much experience, the instructor told me I could make stuff up....but I'm having trouble doing even that.


...i want lunch

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The \\
Last Cigarette:	ehh...sometime before february?
Last Alcoholic Drink:	Sometime in September I think
Last Car Ride:	:-= ...hmmmm i think last friday
Last Kiss:	:\ wednesday. doesn't count though.
Last Good Cry:	...also wednesday
Last Library Book:	the complete plays of aristophanes
Last book bought:	Peach Girl Vol. 9 <3
Last Book Read:	American Gods (unfinished....)
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:	I think it was Shrek 2 in the cheapy theater
Last Movie Rented:	....I fergot...some weird animated movie about dreaming...
Last Cuss Word Uttered:	I swear so much it's hard to tell
Last Beverage Drank:	Pepsi
Last Food Consumed:	a cookie. my mom made it
Last Crush:	..."Glasses"
Last Phone Call:	Shayne
Last TV Show Watched:	Buffy
Last Time Showered:	...O.o oh yuk! Oh god I need to take a shower tonight...im not answering this...
Last Shoes Worn:	m' crappy black work-boots
Last CD Played:	Evanescence "Perfect Mix"
Last Item Bought:	something for lunch the other day
Last Download:	Linkin Park Mp3s
Last Annoyance:	... :)
Last Disappointment:	also ... :(
Last Soda Drank:	...pepsi
Last Thing Written:	...o.o resume assignment
Last Key Used:	house key
Last Words Spoken:	"so i can take it on monday?"
Last Sleep:	...o_O this morning
Last Ice Cream Eaten:	...ranch pecan
Last Chair Sat In:	...THIS one! :D college compu-lab chair
Last Webpage Visited:	...LJ.
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man, i have had a dramatic mood shift since I got home...
i think the time I'm most likely to be in a good mood now is when I'm at school.
...i mean there's different people to talk to, stuff to learn, a computer lab with a much faster connection than mine, and of course the lunchroom

but once I'm alone with myself it's sort of unbearable.
...I'm going to have to start reading more @___o...

...someone teach me to play my guitar and give me singing lessons, I wanna be an emo artist.

BorsYanoVhen

Night falls...
I'm walking all alone
Along endless streets...
Just wanting to be home...
My self pity..
Is getting slightly out of hand.

A sigh forms..
An icy cloud of breath...
My mind drifts
To thoughts of scary death...
My fearful imagination...
Gets the better of me...

I have feared alot since birth...
I have many tears to my name...
But I want to walk without fear...
And I want to feel fear without shame.

Why is the dark night so uninviting?
Why is love so unabiding?
I feel so afraid...
Little gasps of uneasy air escape me
I look back and forth, fear overtakes me
Why do I feel this way?
And at night I wander full of fear and sadness
Uncertain of the world's madness...
It makes me feel so alone...
Teach me to be strong like you
So I can walk with my head up high...
With confidence

Every...
Person that walks by me...
Terrifies... me
I don't seem to trust at all...
My body...
Wants to turn the other way...
My feet ache...
I feel sorry for myself...
The heart break...
Of suspecting everyone else...
For my sake...
I'd better get the help I need...

I have cried alot since birth...
I have many fears to my name...
But I want to walk without fear...
And I want to feel fear without shame.

Why is the dark night so uninviting?
Why is life so unabiding?
I feel so afraid...
Little gasps of uneasy air escape me
I look back and forth, fear overtakes me
Why do I feel this way?
And at night I wander full of fear and sadness
Uncertain of the world's madness...
It makes me feel so alone...
Teach me to be strong and loving like you
I'll walk with my head up high...
With confidence

Why is the dark night so uninviting?
Why is love so unabiding?
I feel so afraid...
Little gasps of uneasy air escape me
I look back and forth, fear overtakes me
I don't want to feel this way...
And when I wander full of fear and sadness
Wondering of the world's madness...
It makes me feel so alone...
Teach me to be strong like you
I want to walk with my head up high...
With confidence...


yeah, oh my god, isn't that so dramatic? what? it sucks? well...I wrote it over two years ago. that's my excuse. my vocabulary must be at least 5% bigger now... maybe I have a better way with words. ...

:-=

sorry for anyone that loaded their friends' page today and saw THREE entries by me o_O