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[violue]

Justin, you big fat liar, you said you never checked LJ anymore!!

oops. apparently my last post worried my friends causing them to plot a check up on me ...but it's ok... i appreciate it... and the 14 ounces of peanut m&ms that was given to me for uh...comfort I guess... except...I kind of hate being the crazy friend @_o;... But I really am. I mean I was ...psychotically angry yesterday about stuff that happened about 4 years ago... and today I'm weepy and as a kind man put it, pathetic... I guess being pathetic makes one a magnet for abuse... that was the hint anyway... "stop apologizing. you want to be sorry, pathetic, ripped apart." ... I'm making no sense. Maybe that line never happened... nah, couldn't have happened. who says things like that to a girl who is crying?


Argh! I think I used up my writing abilities yesterday...this post reads like riddles.

Comments

[glo-wyrm.livejournal.com]

i think your writing ability is spot on sense the state of mind you are trying to convey seems at least a bit puzzled.

that is cool that your friends came and checked up on you at least, even cooler that they brought sugar treats.
being the crazy friend isn't too bad. granted one gets more weird looks from friends, but one also gets away with a lot more vearing away from the social norm which can be a great thing. it keeps some of us from completely buying into the bullshit of the materialistic american dream and mindset...

as far as if anyone said "stop apologizing. you want to be sorry, pathetic, ripped apart.", for one it is most likely driven buy similar feelings within themselves at certain times and disapointment with self for the act of vulnerability that showing emotion is. also, it is somewhat true. i wouldn't say the pathetic part though, just human. we do somewhat want to feel sorry and ripped apart most times because even though it is a suffering it is a suffering that was powerfull enough to help shape the way we see ourselves, and as long as we are attached to how we or others see ourselves, we will hold onto all those things good or bad that make up our percieved identity...

oops, i ranted... sorry. i tend to ramble when talk of emotions and human tendancies comes up...

[violue.livejournal.com]

o.o...You're neat :D

[glo-wyrm.livejournal.com]

nu uh, i am very messy. my room is a mess.

[violue.livejournal.com]

nono neat as in nifty, damnit!!

[glo-wyrm.livejournal.com]

hehe silly, i understood the first time, just couldn't resist the urge to be a wee bit of a wisemhimer. i wonder how that is supposed to be spelled?