My anger.

[violue]

I saw your names together, and it all came rushing back to me. How much I hate you and wish you a life of unending torture. My stomach dropped to the floor and twisted into the fever inducing knot that it is now, and I'm fighting back the bile and tears that comes with recalling the stupidity of the past. The thing that always angers me is that I never said anything when I should have. There are no words to describe the anger that I feel towards myself for that. ...and to you for being part of it. Your words are useless slime, and you turn anyone that cares for you into angry bitter husks of fire. You will spend your life blaming people like us for the disgusting thing you have become, and people like us will spend our lives being stupid enough to believe you. Even you, are stupid enough to believe the filth that cascades from your wretched tongue. You thought you knew me, and the ugliness that lays inside me.

You have no idea how much I hold back, and if you did, perhaps some appreciation would have been tossed my way. I lack your gifts for manipulation, and when I want to destroy you, I will have to forgo subtlety and do it outright.

I hope you know how much you've hurt me and the others, and I hope you spend many sleepless nights regretting it.
But you won't know.
You'll never read this, only vain people who think I'm speaking of them will read this. You'll never understand.

Comments

[glo-wyrm.livejournal.com]

i doubt people will ever know how muhc they/we hold back from eachother. it isn't as if anyone is likely to stop holding back without the most intense motivation possible. there is the possibility of appreciation and being understood even a little, but there is always the possability that people may see the full brunt of the negative we all have and run screaming. ok, the run screaming is an exageration. it is easy to be afraid others would see one differently though.

i hope you don't mind my reply sense you have written an emotionally charged weaving of words, and i know absolutely nothing of the situation. i know the emotion though, have met the sort of people and fallen for the image they projected of their world. lost site of my own for a while. i hope whoever this person is either sees the error in their ways and works to improve themself, or suffers horrable tormenty sufferings...

[violue.livejournal.com]

Maybe when (I feel that) someone is hurting my feelings I should just bust out a pocket mirror... it could get a point across...

[glo-wyrm.livejournal.com]

i guess... i was thinking more tazers or grizzly mace? take that feeling hurting mean person.

ok, actually probably the best way to deal with someone hurting your feelings, that i have found, is to calmly tell them so and then remove yourself from the situation. it tends to get the point across remarkably. you don't have to stay mad or anything, just let the person know they are being cruel and leave. and if you can't do that, tazer and run.

Mean people

[(Anonymous)]

I like this guy...when people hurt your feelings walk away, or run, or run and throw random stuff you find on the street while flailing your arms.






"I wish I was a hunter, in search of different food"

Re: Mean people

[violue.livejournal.com]

Ha, I notice how you left out the part where I tell them they're being cruel, "anonymous"

Re: Mean people

[glo-wyrm.livejournal.com]

o.O *bows*

Re: Mean people

[violue.livejournal.com]

Don't bow!!! He's the one I was complaining about...the welcher!

Re: Mean people

[glo-wyrm.livejournal.com]

well damn... **throws things at annonimous welcher**

Re: Mean people

[(Anonymous)]

keep complaining it makes well for conflict resolution

[karinablack.livejournal.com]

I have someone I would like to say this exact same thing to :(
I Feel ya hon.