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[violue]

i feel trapped, in these huge walls of ice...they create this entire room around me, and it's so cold that it hurts, and it stings, and it feels like I can't breathe, that i can't even continue. and nothing is making it better. not being at school, not friends, not tv, not writing, not painting, not shopping, not medication, not positive thinking, not reasoning, not venting to a live journal, not cutting myself, eating, singing, walking, nothing.

ive got to figure some shit out. im fucking losing it. obviously.

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[(Anonymous)]

There comes a time when even the loudest music can no longer drown out the screams of the soul, and even the sharpest physical pain cannot distract your mind from how much your heart hurts. The wall of ice is a boundary put out by yourself and will not sever in healing your soul only stifle the healing process and make you hurt even more. I can’t imagine what its like to suffer like you are right now, but for a while I walked that road alone and isolated even when those around me cared that I was in pain. At that point I just wanted to drown in a sea of my own sorrows to become numb and feel no more. But this is not how people are supposed to live. I believe you have an incredible mind with great potential. I believe that you’re stronger than this. I believe that a time will come when you will no longer need medication, isolation, or pain. I believe that you have the power to change your life forever. So that when you sing it will not be to distract yourself from the pain but to truly rejoice in your life. And that when you walk you will not be running away from something but admiring the beauty around you. It’s all about making a choice and having a good support team in place that you can trust. Because shit will happen and there is no doubt of that. But it’s how we handle it that will make all the difference in how we live our life. You don’t have to live alone friendless and you don’t; have to live in pain. I hope that my words are not going unheard, I hope they are helping. And please know that I do not say these words to be condescending or treat you like you are stupid or anything. I really care and I am just trying to help.

[violue.livejournal.com]

THERE WILL BE NO MORE ANONYMOUS POSTING ON MY LIVEJOURNAL.

[konekoryu.livejournal.com]

NYAAAAAAAAH! I'm annonymous!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHA

[konekoryu.livejournal.com]

'_'; oh shit.. I'm logged in...

[glo-wyrm.livejournal.com]

if you are ok i will send you reiki as often as i can remember it with emphasis on relaxation and emotional wellbeing. i also offer up a kind ear if you ever want someone to talk to. having gone through the process of losing it(mine mind) before, finding it, then dropping it and breaking it on the floor(thank goodness for duct tape), i can occasionally offer up perspecitve that can lead toward helping others to figure themselves out a bit more. welp, don't want to pester ya, just offering up what little assistance i can provide.

[violue.livejournal.com]

o.o reiki??

[glo-wyrm.livejournal.com]

oh, hehe, emergy healing also known as the laying on of hands. i've been in practice for two years, but am only just now feeling as if i have learned enough to open an actual business of it. i mostly just use it to help friends who arn't feeling well in way, shape, or form.