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[violue]

im having a bad morning.
i had a bad night.
you know because something is punishing me for being a bad friend and all. its saying "you abandon people, you stupod bitch, so youre going to be abandoned when you need someone"
this is why i dont like people anymore
too much fucking troible
i have to get out of bed and leave and go to school, and for some reason im angry about that.
makes sense though...the night before last i was comfortable and happy-ish... and then of course twelve hours later...it wasnt even that many hours later, it was all ruined...and 24 hours later it was worse.. and now i want out

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Being hurt, rejected and used will do this to someone. Like a cancer it eats away at the soul and the mind, leaving a huge hole deep down that only continues to grow and feed on its own emptiness. Bitterness, anger and madness run rampant through ones thoughts. But it’s important to remember that not all people are evil, and not all people are going to abandon you. Granted it’s hard to find people of high moral fiber in these days but they are out there. The real trick is not to fall into a crowd that is going to betray you, make fun of your short comings or abandon you in your time of need. Unfortunately being hurt is unavoidable, it’s going to happen. But it’s how we deal with this pain that will determine if we are broken or we grow and become stronger. You have so many gifts and so many experiences to experience, to let the darkness eat away at you would be not only a crime in and of itself. But a horrible cheat on you, your potential and the lives of the people you touch. Please don’t cheat yourself….. @}-,-`-

[violue.livejournal.com]

Well im totally talking about you, you know. the universe is punishing me for not talking to you anymore... i get that now. thats fine, ill suffer. I LIKE SUFFERING...god I mean i dont want to hurt anyone cant I do anything right??

[(Anonymous)]

Well in the end it is really your choice, and something you will have to live with, you are in control of your destiny, you make the choice, the universe may stack cards in a specific direction but when raging storms come calling we are not suppose to drown in the sea but fight and become stronger to see the sun rise. Life is about growing and healing and pain is the best catalyst of both, we see this in a lot of aspects of life. When we get cut it hurts, but the skin scabs, heals and sometime scars but the skin becomes tougher. When we are little learning to walk is no easy challenge. Quite some time on our belly’s and even when we do manage to prop ourselves up at first we lost balance and fell back down. It did not mean that the universe intended for us never walk again it was just something we had to go through. You are stronger than you think you are. A weaker person suffering as much as you might now still be here. I don’t believe it’s your destiny to suffer however I do not believe that you will realize your destiny if you just accept the suffering. But in the end it’s really your choice.