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[violue]

man, i have had a dramatic mood shift since I got home...
i think the time I'm most likely to be in a good mood now is when I'm at school.
...i mean there's different people to talk to, stuff to learn, a computer lab with a much faster connection than mine, and of course the lunchroom

but once I'm alone with myself it's sort of unbearable.
...I'm going to have to start reading more @___o...

...someone teach me to play my guitar and give me singing lessons, I wanna be an emo artist.

BorsYanoVhen

Night falls...
I'm walking all alone
Along endless streets...
Just wanting to be home...
My self pity..
Is getting slightly out of hand.

A sigh forms..
An icy cloud of breath...
My mind drifts
To thoughts of scary death...
My fearful imagination...
Gets the better of me...

I have feared alot since birth...
I have many tears to my name...
But I want to walk without fear...
And I want to feel fear without shame.

Why is the dark night so uninviting?
Why is love so unabiding?
I feel so afraid...
Little gasps of uneasy air escape me
I look back and forth, fear overtakes me
Why do I feel this way?
And at night I wander full of fear and sadness
Uncertain of the world's madness...
It makes me feel so alone...
Teach me to be strong like you
So I can walk with my head up high...
With confidence

Every...
Person that walks by me...
Terrifies... me
I don't seem to trust at all...
My body...
Wants to turn the other way...
My feet ache...
I feel sorry for myself...
The heart break...
Of suspecting everyone else...
For my sake...
I'd better get the help I need...

I have cried alot since birth...
I have many fears to my name...
But I want to walk without fear...
And I want to feel fear without shame.

Why is the dark night so uninviting?
Why is life so unabiding?
I feel so afraid...
Little gasps of uneasy air escape me
I look back and forth, fear overtakes me
Why do I feel this way?
And at night I wander full of fear and sadness
Uncertain of the world's madness...
It makes me feel so alone...
Teach me to be strong and loving like you
I'll walk with my head up high...
With confidence

Why is the dark night so uninviting?
Why is love so unabiding?
I feel so afraid...
Little gasps of uneasy air escape me
I look back and forth, fear overtakes me
I don't want to feel this way...
And when I wander full of fear and sadness
Wondering of the world's madness...
It makes me feel so alone...
Teach me to be strong like you
I want to walk with my head up high...
With confidence...


yeah, oh my god, isn't that so dramatic? what? it sucks? well...I wrote it over two years ago. that's my excuse. my vocabulary must be at least 5% bigger now... maybe I have a better way with words. ...

:-=

sorry for anyone that loaded their friends' page today and saw THREE entries by me o_O

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You don't need singing lessons to be emo. Hell, you don't even need talent to be emo.