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Justin, you big fat liar, you said you never checked LJ anymore!!

oops. apparently my last post worried my friends causing them to plot a check up on me ...but it's ok... i appreciate it... and the 14 ounces of peanut m&ms that was given to me for uh...comfort I guess... except...I kind of hate being the crazy friend @_o;... But I really am. I mean I was ...psychotically angry yesterday about stuff that happened about 4 years ago... and today I'm weepy and as a kind man put it, pathetic... I guess being pathetic makes one a magnet for abuse... that was the hint anyway... "stop apologizing. you want to be sorry, pathetic, ripped apart." ... I'm making no sense. Maybe that line never happened... nah, couldn't have happened. who says things like that to a girl who is crying?


Argh! I think I used up my writing abilities yesterday...this post reads like riddles.

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...also it should be noted that most of the time I'm too busy feeling sorry for myself to actually wish so much badness on other people... in fact now I feel guilty for even putting it out there...

I'm wishing people tortures and pains for what amounts to hurting my feelings ... I guess I should save that sort of anger for my government or my father or something more useful...