These aren't a few of my favorite things.

I got so pissed at someone last night... and then i was upset because i was feeling anger usually reserved for zach and becky, and it wasn't either of them... so i was mad, and then tearfully mad that i was that mad. ...once i get into that territory i'm pretty mich fucked, as i still haven't developed decent coping mechanisms... so i scratched at one of my wrist-scars for five minutes with a safety pin, while sitting outside in the cold without my jacket... it wasn't like I created some huge gash...that's not why it bothers me... it's that I haven't done that to calm myself down in two months, and i've gotten really fucking pissed at times in the last couple of months (obviously) ... so if the other shit I was able to go past with just the standard crying until i burn through the being upset, and then watching tv and going to sleepm yadda... why did i go to far this time? It's a fluke that i even had the stupid safety pin... when I was going to see my friends, I thought my shirt's buttons didnt go down far enough, so i stuck the safety pin in my pocket to fix it when I got there... but while i was leaving i realized my buttons weren't going down far enough because im a dork and mis-buttoned my shirt... but i didnt bother taking the safety pin out of my pocket, because, its a small piece of metal and i forgot about it until i got all damn mad...and then got all stupid...then naturally i got upset because it calmed me down. ...I uh... I don't want that kind of thing to calm me down. It's creepy.



In uh... other "news" I discovered that my laptop has a chess game thingy on it. I wish I'd nevert found it. I'm like addicted to this game... me VS the computer...and I haven't won ONCE. Stupid Bishop. It's always the Bishop and the Knight...I neeeeever see them coming.



American Dad is on... I just can't get that excited about it...it's not family guy... o-O; and the uh.. the dad's voice is making me want to hit my head on things.... but it came out of the mind of seth macfarlane...soooo... gotta give it a shot, right?


...Iiiiiit's MIDTERMS!! Is everyone excited? Getting all studious? Buying rabbit's feet? ....Bribing the teacher with money/bodily goods?

anyway...i'm tired...i got home at around i think 9am... went to sleep...till 1pm... I didnt want to sleep for too long, otherwise I'd fuck everything up and be awake until 5am tonight...but have to wake up at seven.... its a whole thing.