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Oct. 17th, 2004 10:53 ami think there are no more words left
im starting to wish that someone would decide im crazy and have me hospitalized...but that's like incredibly lazy... that's like walking onto a great battlefield in war, and announcing "look, i'm not really up to this, so you can just take my country."
...sucks though, ive been perfectly fine all week...but there's this catalyst... and after that nudge come thoughts i don't want to think, and then cuts... where's the girl who was maybe a bit short tempered but otherwise okay all last week? ...
i want to feel better...i can't bear to be depressed at school. at least i'm somewhat normal at school... nobody there is going to think i cut myself, or that sometimes i get freakishly depressed... at most they're just going to think "who's the weirdo in the wig?" or "i wonder if that's her real hair?" ... unnnless people from school are like reading this, in which case: I'm not homidical, don't worry.
im starting to wish that someone would decide im crazy and have me hospitalized...but that's like incredibly lazy... that's like walking onto a great battlefield in war, and announcing "look, i'm not really up to this, so you can just take my country."
...sucks though, ive been perfectly fine all week...but there's this catalyst... and after that nudge come thoughts i don't want to think, and then cuts... where's the girl who was maybe a bit short tempered but otherwise okay all last week? ...
i want to feel better...i can't bear to be depressed at school. at least i'm somewhat normal at school... nobody there is going to think i cut myself, or that sometimes i get freakishly depressed... at most they're just going to think "who's the weirdo in the wig?" or "i wonder if that's her real hair?" ... unnnless people from school are like reading this, in which case: I'm not homidical, don't worry.
