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I still have the box it came in...
...I was watching American Pie on FX earlier... and the movie got to the part where ...well everybody gets laid. You know, the whole loss of virginity part. I'm staring at the TV and thinking, wow. Those characters are lucky. Is that how some people lost their virginity? Like some sweet tender moment? Like some special amazing thing? ...(except for Jim...cause...you know...)
Anyway, it got me thinking. Now, I don't quite remember the circumstances of my big moment, as it was over a year ago, and I can barely remember what I did yesterday, but I do recall the total lack of um... specialness. Not that it was bad, or even that awkward. It just sort of happened. Like it was something I did all the time. I think that's what kind bugs me. It wasn't even really some socio-cultural rite of passage or any of that shit...it just was something that occured, didn't even really hurt like eeeeeverybody seems to claim. (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! LIARS! :p) ... o_o; So do I feel cheated that I didn't have any sort of special, painful, awkward night of virginity loss? You bet your ass. How fucked up is that? I'm sure had it been some media-esque thing, I'd wish it were different too.
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anyway now that I've made anyone reading this extremely uncomfortable and possibly a bit sick, I'll be on my way.
^_^
Anyway, it got me thinking. Now, I don't quite remember the circumstances of my big moment, as it was over a year ago, and I can barely remember what I did yesterday, but I do recall the total lack of um... specialness. Not that it was bad, or even that awkward. It just sort of happened. Like it was something I did all the time. I think that's what kind bugs me. It wasn't even really some socio-cultural rite of passage or any of that shit...it just was something that occured, didn't even really hurt like eeeeeverybody seems to claim. (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! LIARS! :p) ... o_o; So do I feel cheated that I didn't have any sort of special, painful, awkward night of virginity loss? You bet your ass. How fucked up is that? I'm sure had it been some media-esque thing, I'd wish it were different too.
...........
anyway now that I've made anyone reading this extremely uncomfortable and possibly a bit sick, I'll be on my way.
^_^
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Mine was: "What the hell, I'm with this guy that I trust, that I think I know. We have this room for the night. We might as well just get it over with."
I still wish mine would have been some build up like prom night or something. I didn't even have a date from prom so blah! That never happened.
I know what you mean though, feeling like it is something that you have already done and you just do it.
Hell I still feel this way with it.
heheh. Now that Iv'e made you uncomfortable.
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