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[violue]

Buuu. I was supposed to go shopping with my mom today...(Lane Bryant, woo!) but I couldn't sleep. My ambien didn't kick in at all, and after that e-mail I sent to Justin a few weeks ago I've been afraid to take two in one night. So I couldn't fall asleep, and suddenly it was 6am and I had to get up in 3 hours, and I finally told my mom I couldn't go, and I got really upset and started crying :( ... She said she still had to go into town today, but that we could go tomorrow, and that made me feel even worse. She hates going in to town both days of her weekend, and she's going to be busy the next two weekends and I felt like I was robbing her of something. ...But not wanting to wait 3 weeks to get some new clothes won apparently.

...So I might taken 2 ambien tonight to make sure I get to sleep. Maybe I'll just stick my laptop under my mom's bed or something.

Ugh a 25 year old woman girl crying to her mom in the middle of the night.