violue | I guess I'm a sicko too!!

Arrrgh I did it again! After reading all that mydeathspace stuff I googled suicide notes...which led to an article on Wikipedia about a politician who shot himself on camera, which led to me viewing the wikipedia list of filmed deaths, which led me to some website with horrifyingly gross photos in the style of Ogrish... so now I have all these horrible images in my head of people who were hung, and murdered bloody people, and the barely recognizable bodies of tsunami victims in my head!! >.>' so now I'm looking at photos of kittens on deviant art.

This isnt even the first time I've had to look at photos of kittens to try and erase some sort of binge-internetting involving horrific photos.

On the plus side... reading all those suicide notes had made me a little depressed and suicide-minded.... but the photos made me much less inclined to die any time soon. (although I guess if I was going to commit suicide I wouldnt somehow beat myself to death or drown horribly, but still. dead bad. kittens good.)

The amazing part is, I was looking at all that on a full stomach and having little reaction, but earlier I tried to plunge the clogged toilet on an empty stomach and almost made a barfy.

God I hope I dont have nightmares tonight about kittens murdering prostitutes and then drowning in a tsunami and being found many decayfilled days later.

Someone console me.