violue | Awake again

Another night of weird dreams full of symbolism relating to problems in my life. There was a shitload of stuff, and I think it was all connected by the same dream. Like I think it was all happening in the same dream reality, which was containing the same people and locations as MY reality...but ...uh...everything was extremely off, of course. Half of the stuff was in the wrong place...and there were of course the usual random locations that don't exsist but my brain obviously wanted in my dream.

I got really frustrated last night. I was trying to help someone, mostly to ease my own conscience about what I may have done to him. But, he just, is so firmly stuck to his side. Normally, that'd be cool, sticking to one's convictions, but if those convictions are causing someone unneccessary pain, then...maybe that person needs some bloody new ones!

I'm in "I give up on men and all that they stand for" mode...which is a hop, skip, and a jump away from just giving up on people altogether. Not that it ever lasts long. I think part of my dream was pointing that out. Damnit.

I should probably go get all showered and fed...I have to go have my stitches taken out now. Let the fun times roll, yo.

random song excerpt
There's gotta be more to life
Then chasin down every temporary high
To satisfy me...