(no subject)

You can not stay here.
I am bathing in fear.
I am scrubbing my skin until it burns.
A rash of pain and unrest is forming
On my arms
On my breasts.
I would run away.
I am drowning in anger.
I refuse to swim.
My lungs are filling with rage
My heart is in v-fib.
I am dying in secret.
I am caving in with mystery.
I am finding my seer.
Who sees in me
All the things I've scraped away.

(no subject)

I will never tell anyone
I want to cut until the pain is gone
I want to bleed until the sun sets
I want to sleep for as long as I can
I want to cry until my body is dry
I want to scream until my voice is gone
I want to beat my fists against the wall until my hands are broken
I want to grind my teeth until they shatter
I want to stand out in the cold until my hell freezes over
I want to kill until I am truly alone
I will never tell anyone.