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I hadn't seen Lina (my cat) in two days... and I was paranoid...because she's for some reason been scared to go outside for the last year...but then suddenly she started staying out all the time, and wasn't coming back even to get fed. When my landlord(lives on the other part of the duplex) noticed I was looking for her yesterday, he said that he and my landlady were worried about her because her eyes looked weepy. I agreed that her eyes looked weird, but I kinda thought it had something to do with her not being used to the bright light/air outside... anyway he heard me calling for her today, and asked if I'd seen her recently, and I said not since yesterday or the day before...and he said "damn, that's not a good sign"... being that I'm a worrier, I tried not to freak out about the idea that maybe my kitty was dead or something, which was sort of the implication there... I wandered about the yard, staring vacantly about for a while before my landlord said "I found your cat, but she's very sick and I think she's dying"...at which point I had a spiritual heartattack I'm sure and followed him to where my cat was. He said I should get her, and he'd take her to the vet...(I'm guessing he assumed we couldnt pay for it since we're living there on HUD...x_x)... She was on a wooden fence in their part of the yard...but she was in a tricky spot near a wall so I had to call her over...which took forever... the landlord said she went there to die. that freaked me out alot.
Anyway she finally came over, and she looked awful. There were MASSIVE amounts of fur missing around her neck and chin. Actually it's kind of gross looking. Her neck was gross a few days ago... lumpy. She'd gotten fleas...and she scratched the shit out of herself.. but my mom gave the cats garlic, which usually works, so I figured it would go away...clearly it didn't... her skin is all raw and bloody... it'a never ever gotten like that before... I didn't even know a cat could do that by scratching themselves. ...I was just so surprised... It had only been a couple of days. I was holding the cat, but she saw the landlord, and ran away because she's always been a big spaz. So I had to get back around the fence and start calling her again.

Then I heard the landlady say "We think it's really inhumane what you're doing to her." I can't remember what my response was...then the landlord said "Yeah it's inhumane"...and one of them, i think the landlady again said "Your mom wouldn't let you end up like that" ... I think all I could get out was that I didn't know it was that bad. ...and I didn't...If I'd known she looked like that I would have flipped out and shit by then... they went on doing their own thing after standing there giving me disapproving glares...and all i could do was wait for my cat to come... but I felt berated and humiliated, and I started crying... that I'd been such a bad 'owner/cat-parent'... I can't believe they spoke to me like that. I love animals just as much as anyone else. I just...didn't know my kitty kat was all yucky. She wasn't around...

I got her in the house finally... she pigged out... then I carted her off to my room... ...she hasn't left since then...it's been HOURS... like half a day......she's under a table in the corner of my room.
I really hope she doesn't pee on my clothes or anything. Maybe I'll clean those up when I'm done.

I got a call from the landlord a bit later and he said he'd take Lina to the vet on Tuesday... and that I should go with... hopefully my brother or Shaynie will go with me...because I don't want the awkwardness of being alone with him for several hours feeling like he's about to make me feel guilty...

I'm worried about Lina though... she's not all active... I hope she isn't really going to die...


I'm going to pick my clothes up off the floor now...

Oh My God.

As part of our weekend of Fushigi Yuugi and junk food...Shayne and Justin and I were talking about getting Pizza... from BlackJack... we were going to call...but I suggested we go down there and order it...to get out of the house for a break and all... After we'd been back for an hour or two, my mom came in the room to tell us that Justin left his lights on... he checked on the car, and the battery was dead. Sooooo we called Shayne's mom for a jump... much to her annoyance(the mom)... and Shayne and I ran off to the car to try and see if we could magically start it. I won't go into details...but the car has to be start in a manner that does not involve the ignition area... and Shayne accidentally broke the part that starts the car... so Justin tried to fix it before Shayne's mom showed up to give the jump. he asked if I had any super glue... I went and asked my mom...who found a bottle and was trying to open it with her teeth... suddenly my mom was trying to get something out of her mouth... she'd gotten superglue in her mouth...and it's ALL over her teeth and her gums...and her falsies...(me mum lost 4 teeth via domestic violence)... so she was in the bathroom cleaning them off with a sharp thingy...and laughing hysterically... going on about how it was the most ridiculous thing that had ever happened to her.. XD I think I agree... it's INSANE... the car isnt fixed though :( shayne and justin ended up getting a ride home...

just thought I'd share :)