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Jan. 23rd, 2005 06:58 pmit seems like lately i'd rather be at school than at home... not because i'm some sort of academic overachiever (of course not) ...but home-life feels sorta empty as of late.
...I should consider cleaning my room... it's starting to get a bit out of hand....
i feel lonely and yet i also have a strong desire to be for the most part isolated....and not talk to people...
maybe that's why im happier at school... i can be around people... but i don't neccessarily have to TALK to them.
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also... i am continuing my tradition of dwelling on the past. excessively.
i mean you can tell yourself that you wash your hands of the past and all the disappointment or whatever it has caused you... but that doesn't mean you can do it. ...some parts of my life feel really disgusting. a relationship that has always been so important to me, and that i've always wanted to grow into something more... is instead becoming something I can only be ashamed of, and regret. i didn't want that at all...
what a drag
...I should consider cleaning my room... it's starting to get a bit out of hand....
i feel lonely and yet i also have a strong desire to be for the most part isolated....and not talk to people...
maybe that's why im happier at school... i can be around people... but i don't neccessarily have to TALK to them.
'
also... i am continuing my tradition of dwelling on the past. excessively.
i mean you can tell yourself that you wash your hands of the past and all the disappointment or whatever it has caused you... but that doesn't mean you can do it. ...some parts of my life feel really disgusting. a relationship that has always been so important to me, and that i've always wanted to grow into something more... is instead becoming something I can only be ashamed of, and regret. i didn't want that at all...
what a drag
