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Problem. So the anti-depressants are more or less starting to balance out...and you know what I noticed? I feel almost exactly the same way I felt BEFORE I started taking them...actually a bit worse, but that might just be attributed to my current situation. Anyway, at that appointment I had yesterday I was told more or less that this wasn't really a normal reaction to the medication, and that they should be making me feel better. So I guess all I can do is tell my doctor and see if she would reccomend a higher dosage, a different pill, or some more "wait n' see"...

Also, now that I'm down to 170 lbs(which is low for me...) I can feel myself developing quite a fear of weight gain. This, believe it or not, is new. I've been sensitive about my weight, and obsessively checking it almost daily in the past, and yadda yadda, but I've never really felt a -fear- or eating/gaining weight. Of course I didn't really realize I was feeling this until after I'd had my lunch today, which was to say the least, unhealthy but DAMN good. :) ... I guess all I can do for myself for now...is to try and eat healthier, go on a few walks...but try not to be scared of eating more than one meal a day. I'm going to give myself a heart attack. @_o;