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i've gotta say... i hate making any plans with my friend zach. because generally he goes and changes his mind and I always feel disappointed, and when I get disappointed, I get sad. Partly because im expecting to do something and then it doesnt happen, and partly because it makes me feel uninteresting and whatnot.

Of course he'll never know this, because me getting sad or whatever is just typical behavior for me...
and i can't seem to explain my feelings without coming off like either a loser, a psycho, or just an idiot...and who needs that?