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Jul. 21st, 2004 01:00 pmi think last week i was at 185, now im at 175...
...im a tad obsessed with my weight fluxuations... I think it's just missing water weight, as it has been a TAD hot, and it's easy to get dehydrated.
...and for you Eugenians, it's only going to get hotter it looks like.
well.. I've been pretty bummed out of my gourd lately, i confess. I've spent all of yesterday and part of today just in my bed, staring at the TV, with towels over my window to stop all that light from coming in. ...which is pathetic and sad to be sure, but on the plus side it's summer, and I have nary any obligations that I am neglecting right now... ehhh except a few to myself, I've been meaning to go get a few art supplies for days now...i just havent... because... all depression aside, it's HOT out and I'm lazy.
I'm seriously considering anti-depressants again...and of course in the midst of these thoughts I was watching CNN yesterday and there was a brief mention of there being a 4x increased risk of suicidal thoughts and attempts when first taking anti-depressants... so uh... HMMM...maybe not. Maybe I should just start smoking pot. Haha...but where would I find some in EUGENE of all places? (sarcasm) ... nah...forget that idea too. I can assume it's a bit of an expensive 'hobby' to maintain, and I am of course unemployed...
anyway, i'm hoping i feel better by tomorrow, because the other day my mom on a whim bought us train tickets to portland for the day...and i'd rather be enjoying my out-of-town-ness...not wandering around a huge city looking depressed.
okay...well...i guess im done yammering for now... i want to take a shower before I lock myself back in my room. ...
and um...there's a friend that's been ICQing me and im a dick and I never answer because im never up for a conversation...so... hi Adam
-d o m a
...im a tad obsessed with my weight fluxuations... I think it's just missing water weight, as it has been a TAD hot, and it's easy to get dehydrated.
...and for you Eugenians, it's only going to get hotter it looks like.
well.. I've been pretty bummed out of my gourd lately, i confess. I've spent all of yesterday and part of today just in my bed, staring at the TV, with towels over my window to stop all that light from coming in. ...which is pathetic and sad to be sure, but on the plus side it's summer, and I have nary any obligations that I am neglecting right now... ehhh except a few to myself, I've been meaning to go get a few art supplies for days now...i just havent... because... all depression aside, it's HOT out and I'm lazy.
I'm seriously considering anti-depressants again...and of course in the midst of these thoughts I was watching CNN yesterday and there was a brief mention of there being a 4x increased risk of suicidal thoughts and attempts when first taking anti-depressants... so uh... HMMM...maybe not. Maybe I should just start smoking pot. Haha...but where would I find some in EUGENE of all places? (sarcasm) ... nah...forget that idea too. I can assume it's a bit of an expensive 'hobby' to maintain, and I am of course unemployed...
anyway, i'm hoping i feel better by tomorrow, because the other day my mom on a whim bought us train tickets to portland for the day...and i'd rather be enjoying my out-of-town-ness...not wandering around a huge city looking depressed.
okay...well...i guess im done yammering for now... i want to take a shower before I lock myself back in my room. ...
and um...there's a friend that's been ICQing me and im a dick and I never answer because im never up for a conversation...so... hi Adam
-d o m a
