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Money Talks
Dec. 21st, 2003 01:37 pmSo, before yesterday I had about 40 bucks on me. Which is good considering I don't have a job, and I breezed through my financial aid quite some time ago. But my mom gave me like 50 for ...no conceiveable reason, and my grandparents sent me 100 for christmas and there was also the 40 from selling back my text books
so actually having 40 left is really bad, considering I have very little uh... "materials" to show for it...and I dont remember spending 100 bucks on like food and movies...o.O; but um okay. ...I somehow spent most of that...(I don't know how... I don't know how!)
But anyway, I had 40 dollars left, after making my um..sad little christmas presents. I didn't want to run out of money because of the notion that I am obligated to buy my friends something from their favorite store, since that is evidently the meaning of the holiday. But...I got little presents for my pals... a funny CG image in a frame for Becky... I found a cute cartoon of Benji from Good Charlotte...that looks like a south park toon...and I pasted it over the old background of a plastic wall clock for christina... and I printed several images on canvas to make shayne some johnny depp/orlando bloom patches to put on her bag...which actually :\ as it turns out the ink will come off if rained on... so I made two sets...
but anyway...the gifts are lame, but I did spend time on them, and thought about them, etc...and I'd rather give them something than nothing...
...So anyway yesterday I wake up to find out that LCC "owed" me 338 dollars in Pell Grant money, and they mailed me a check for it. Yay! I took my mom to lunch, bought some random stuff, basically spent the 40 dollars I already had on me, I guess.(...not sure how that all equalled 40 dollars...but um...I guess it must have) ...
anyway at lunch I was talking to my mom and I was saying that I kept wanting to tell my friends about it, the check, since it was cool that I got money and all. But I'd been thinking about the whole christmas present thing, and that maybe since I had money, I should be buying them better gifts. that's kinda how things are... if I have some money, and I don't get someone a birthday present, I hear about it for eons afterward. But hey, maybe I'm horribly selfish, and don't want to be broke?
...so with that whole scenario in mind...I didn't want to say anything... because I knew they'd think "oh she got 300 dollars and she didn't even buy me anything"
I feel like I SHOULD buy them stuff. I don't know... I mean I'm not living on my own, I'm not paying for any bills besides groceries... so it's not like I *need* the money... but if I feel forced into getting someone a gift, it sort of negates the whole point, doesn't it.
...so I got a phone call from one of my friends this morning, and I was um...a bit tired, so I blabbed that I got a check from the college, and that I hadnt wanted to tell anyone because I thought they'd think "oh well you have to buy us better stuff now" ...and she said "no no, you don't have to buy us new stuff--how much did you get?" so I told her... and she said "well yeah you should buy us SOMETHING, 300 dollars is alot of money!"
...so if I was testing her she failed.
...anyway.. if anyone's reading this... Am I wrong? What should I do?
so actually having 40 left is really bad, considering I have very little uh... "materials" to show for it...and I dont remember spending 100 bucks on like food and movies...o.O; but um okay. ...I somehow spent most of that...(I don't know how... I don't know how!)
But anyway, I had 40 dollars left, after making my um..sad little christmas presents. I didn't want to run out of money because of the notion that I am obligated to buy my friends something from their favorite store, since that is evidently the meaning of the holiday. But...I got little presents for my pals... a funny CG image in a frame for Becky... I found a cute cartoon of Benji from Good Charlotte...that looks like a south park toon...and I pasted it over the old background of a plastic wall clock for christina... and I printed several images on canvas to make shayne some johnny depp/orlando bloom patches to put on her bag...which actually :\ as it turns out the ink will come off if rained on... so I made two sets...
but anyway...the gifts are lame, but I did spend time on them, and thought about them, etc...and I'd rather give them something than nothing...
...So anyway yesterday I wake up to find out that LCC "owed" me 338 dollars in Pell Grant money, and they mailed me a check for it. Yay! I took my mom to lunch, bought some random stuff, basically spent the 40 dollars I already had on me, I guess.(...not sure how that all equalled 40 dollars...but um...I guess it must have) ...
anyway at lunch I was talking to my mom and I was saying that I kept wanting to tell my friends about it, the check, since it was cool that I got money and all. But I'd been thinking about the whole christmas present thing, and that maybe since I had money, I should be buying them better gifts. that's kinda how things are... if I have some money, and I don't get someone a birthday present, I hear about it for eons afterward. But hey, maybe I'm horribly selfish, and don't want to be broke?
...so with that whole scenario in mind...I didn't want to say anything... because I knew they'd think "oh she got 300 dollars and she didn't even buy me anything"
I feel like I SHOULD buy them stuff. I don't know... I mean I'm not living on my own, I'm not paying for any bills besides groceries... so it's not like I *need* the money... but if I feel forced into getting someone a gift, it sort of negates the whole point, doesn't it.
...so I got a phone call from one of my friends this morning, and I was um...a bit tired, so I blabbed that I got a check from the college, and that I hadnt wanted to tell anyone because I thought they'd think "oh well you have to buy us better stuff now" ...and she said "no no, you don't have to buy us new stuff--how much did you get?" so I told her... and she said "well yeah you should buy us SOMETHING, 300 dollars is alot of money!"
...so if I was testing her she failed.
...anyway.. if anyone's reading this... Am I wrong? What should I do?
