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I'm copy-pasting most of this from a comment I just made on FFAF on ONTD. Might as well stick it here too, it's entry-worthy.


So a few days ago I got an e-mail from my friend: "Did you hear about Zach?"

Zach, is my "evil-ex" that I mention from time to time. The one I lost my virginity to a decade ago, who was sleeping with me and my best friend at the same time. The guy that I had and on/off thing with for like 7 years. The guy that forced himself on me when I was like 22 and didn't knock it off until he caught on to the part where I was crying and presumably realized he was being a terrible person. The guy that sexually abused his sisters and beat up his brothers when he was a teenager("It's okay," I told him, "You regret it, and you can never make it right, but that was a long time ago, you're a different person." So fucking false.) The guy that 2.5 years ago said to me "You're not worth the keystrokes it takes to type this message." during an argument on IM. Sadly, he's also the last guy I slept with (also around 2.5 years ago, I wonder what sex is like nowadays, does it involve rocket packs?).

I've seen him only once since then, at the end of last February, we hung out for a few hours before I took a train to go to California for a week. We e-mailed a few times.. one time he said we could hang out, but I was at a weird dosage with my meds and figured it wouldn't go well. The last time I heard from him was the beginning of June, and I haven't e-mailed him since mid-June. I was upset about something and wanted his opinion, and he never bothered to respond, and I was like "w/e I'm too lazy for this shit"... I figured I'd probably e-mail him on his birthday this month because I always do, but I was starting to talk myself out of it because well he sucks and no good can come from it.

Back to the e-mail my friend sent. I responded "ummm no, what about Zach?" He said "Prison. Not getting out until 2020something. Rape of a minor." ... I make with the "WTFFFFF" and he says "That's all I know." So I look him up in the inmate database for Oregon, and yep. He's been incarcerated since September, and in an actual prison since November. My first thought was that he boinked some 17 year old(which would be bad enough since he's almost 36) and got in trouble, but no the things he was convicted for involved rape of someone under the age of 14. I have no idea what the actual age of the victim was though. I'm totally freaking out, I made a screencap of the inmate info (which included his mugshot...god he even LOOKS like a child rapist) and sent it to my mom and my brother because "OH MY GOD LOOK WHAT HAPPENED"... I had the screencap open for like a day and a half and kept randomly looking at it and freaking out.

I wonder if anyone has kicked his ass yet. I keep thinking about writing him some sort of mean letter, but since they read them first, maybe they wouldn't even deliver it to him if it was a letter that said "lmao, fuck u"

So much of my identity is unfortunately linked to my history with this guy, and I am freaking out that he really did this(it's hard to be actually SURPRISED, but it's still shocking)... I keep randomly pausing what I'm doing and thinking "Jesus Christ, he's in prison." ... and then I freak out because wow I'm never going to see him again and that's really hard to wrap my mind around. I mean he'll be in prison for 9 years-ish, and I'm sure ONE of us will be dead 9 years from now, probably me. But hell even if we weren't, I reeeeeeeeeeeally can't imagine ever wanting to see him again, unless it was part of some revenge-murder-plot...but if I haven't killed him yet, it's probably not gonna happen. Anyway, yeah. And part of me wants to be like "LOL HAHA HE'S IN PRISON" and party or whatever, but the reason he's IN prison is that he's done something horrible to some poor girl whose life is probably a mess. I wonder what his son thinks of all this. It's got to suck having a guy like that as your father D: I think his son is around 12 or 13.

And like wow, every time I thought of him or considered e-mailing him in the last few months, or that time I panicked and deleted my okc profile because I didn't have anonymous browsing on and looked at his profile a month or so ago... he was already in jail. Funnily enough, the last day he logged in was the day he got put in jail.

It makes me wonder, too, about when this happened. Courts move slow, right? Had he already done this, and was waiting to be arraigned back when I saw him last February? Or when he was e-mailing me about watching Grimm in June? I wouldn't even know how to find that out. Especially since the victim is a minor.

Date: 2013-02-09 08:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] melalucci.livejournal.com
::waves::

Just letting you know that I read this, and I'm in your corner. From across the Internet.

Date: 2013-02-09 12:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] violue.livejournal.com
awww thank you :3

Date: 2013-03-25 12:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] billsolomon.livejournal.com
hey what's it like to be a repulsive fatass bitch? jw

Date: 2013-03-25 12:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] violue.livejournal.com
so are you like going through some stuff

Date: 2013-03-25 12:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] billsolomon.livejournal.com
nothing that compares to being a fat bitch and dating a rapist.

Date: 2013-03-25 01:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] violue.livejournal.com
Ok bb but if you need to talk, I'm here for you.

Date: 2013-03-25 12:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fwee-prower.livejournal.com
Hey what's it like to be dumb fuck? Jw

Date: 2013-03-25 12:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] billsolomon.livejournal.com
aw, how nice. a fat bitch sticking up for her fat bitch friend. you repulsive obese ogres have to stick together <3

Date: 2013-03-25 01:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fwee-prower.livejournal.com
Well one. I'm a guy. Two I'm skinny. Sooo think of some better insults.

Date: 2013-03-25 01:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] billsolomon.livejournal.com
oh, so just because you're a male, you can't be a bitch? congratulations, you're a misogynist BITCH.

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